i make damn good corn custard!

so yeah, its Christmas and I'm home alone.
my elder sis is at her Christmas party,
eating huge mouth-watering-$80-turkey,
while i am eating custard.
they're exchanging presents,
while i am what? blogging?
where's the Christmas spirit?
i dont celebrate christmas often.
im not even sure if i have christian friends.
i think i do but heck, i dont even talk to them.

i would love to receive some christmas presents though.
anyone?

hmmm, just as i thought.
no one.
well, merry christmas.

i need to change.
i need to change my attitude.
i need to change my lifestyle.
i need to change my appearance.
i need to change my food intake.
i need to change my bad habits.
i need to change my fucking weight.

i need to get thinner.
i need to so badly.

im sick and tired of being single. (i think?)
im sick and tired of not getting noticed.
im sick and tired of pretty girls.
i want to be one!

FUCK YOU WORLD!

have you ever wondered what's it like having no money at all?
i literally have ZERO money left.
absolutely nothing.

ZILCH!

i really need to find a job.
i cant keep sitting at home all day long.
i need to get out of the house.
i am wasting too much time.
that amount of time can be put into good use,
and with that amount of time,
i could probably earn actual money.

school's over.
friends gone, almost forever.
i feel pathetic.
i am useless.
i don't have a backbone.
i am the ultimate negative thinker.
i am no queen.
i am no princess.

I'm like a beggar begging for shelter.
I'm worthless.

new year's approaching.
need to stick to my new year's resolution.
i'd be a better person,
a better friend,
a better family member.

kl

BACK FROM KL!