to work, to become an adult,

is not something easy to explain but what i personally think and understand, i want to put them into action. after finishing school, i've been rejecting jobs all the time whenever i couldn't find what i wanted to do. giving up, i kept quitting without even trying to look at myself. i blamed it on the work that i couldn't find what i wanted to do, even if i worked hard there's no physical difference. so how can i work hard? i couldn't understand that and was irritated but one time, i came up with an idea and everyone listened and the fact that people listen to stuff that even someone like me said made me happy. so for a little longer, i've decided to try after i've settled everything. little by little, rather that just as a part-timer, people will start to see me as an individual. after that, i might start to see how my work would come to shape.

to become an adult, is to be acknowledged by someone. the reason why i am here. others appreciating work that only i can do. that's what it means. in order for that to happen, i have to take responsibility for my work. having that feeling is the difference between adults and children.

my final goal is for my family to be proud of me.